am not in the best of moods rite now. infact i have been crying. cant i make one mistake?? just one mistake?? isnt it allowed, do i have to be this all perfect person all the time??
i know am ranting but rite now am trying so hard to not feel sorry for myself.
back in secondary school, i used to have a crush on this guy. ok there is mycrush, my friend's boyfriend(who am realli freinds with) and this third random guy who i dont realli talk to.
i have talked about this issue before in one of my posts..see here.
well am chatting wiv same friend again just a couple of minuites ago and he brings up the subject and he still talks about it like he belives something did actualli go down. am quiet and then he asks what has he done? nigga what havent u done!!! ..
am sick and tired of having to defend myself, whenever i do people call me defensive, and when i dont they go ahead believing, am sad cos this guy knows i dont like that part of my life, i made a mistake why cant i be allowed to forget it in peace!
i hate all references to it and i havent even been speaking to any of the guys involved because of the fact that i realli hate the issue.
i dont even know what to say, am just tired!
i just came here to get healing by typing whats in my heart... gudnyt!