This type of government!

I am an ardent reader of the online news website pointblanknews.com.. dont know how many of us actually read it but it has unbiased news(i think) and it always has details you dont find in the print newspapers.

i had recently heard of the closure of channels news network and i was wondering what manner or 'democratic' government would close down a tv station. i went on the net(my only source of information) to find out the reason why... well apparently, channels broadcasted on september the 16th that president umaru musa yar'adua intended to resign.. that being untrue made sss to swoop on their station forcefully close it down and drag their staff away to detention.. all these after channels had apologised for its mistake and retracted the story.
(who can blame them, with his health, one would think that that would have been the wiser choice!)

hot on the heels of that is the arrest of johnathan elendu, the publisher of another online newspaper, elendureports.com. he was arrested as he went into nnamdi azikiwe airport in abuja.
and they(sss) are currently seeking the publishers of pointblanknews.com and saharareporters.com.

hmmm, if this had been happening in 1994-1995 i would have had a perfect explanation and i wouldnt even dare blog about it for fear of being tagged an opposition, but in this democratic era, who knew that we would still fancy the ways of old? take a stroll through the stone age? try to force people to our way of thinking? its soo amazing i dont even want to believe it..

when baba was in power, i sometimes cringed at the manner of insults that were hauled at him on daily basis, his daily comparisons, all the jokes that centered on first his looks and then his style of government, the slurs about his personal life, he took it in his stride, did his time and left. i mean yar'adua only has one nickname ....yet! what is he being all hot and bothered for? abi the directives are not from him? can anyone truly convince me of that?

other news, efcc has lost the case files against, obasanjo, ibori, odili, igbenedion,fayose etc etc... so now, they officially have no case to answer as it would be near impossible to prosecute them without evidence.
i have no comments on this one whatsoever, and i thought we were actually making headway in our fight against corruption...tsk tsk!

AT least when ribadu was there, we got a large number of prosecutions and wins and it actually gave us hope no matter how much some thought he was a government machinery to haunt those that stopped being loyal to baba.

Bring back ribadu, conduct fresh elections, change the constitution, bring in the young and out with the old, lets inject youth into the government and lets watch nigeria take its pride of place amongst the other countries of the world, most importantly, let people enjoy their rights, Freedom of Speech! anyone?

i need to.....ARGGGGHHH!!

God!! when will i ever learn??.. ok before i start ranting.. i need to apologize for my 2 weeks leave or something... i dont know who even signed the papers authorizing the leave.. i guess i had the signature forged..hehe.. ok... ..last post was about breaking up with my friend cum boyfriend cum friend right??

well i did it. told him nicely i thought the dynamics of the relationship worked better in a friendship state than anything else and i wud like to redefine the whole thing and take us 3 months back. he was cool about the whole thing, still calling me and all that.. we even hung out(with others of course) and then suddenly he's taking the piss!

dude is acting like a 3 year old.. talking to me anyhow.. doing all that thrash talking boys like to do(no offense to guys), being the first one to diss me, and all that bull crap!

am so pissed right now, am not even going to mind my language! dude is straight out of his mind!
i cant even believe that for a quarter of a second i thot he was grown and matured.. like for God sakes ure friggin22!! grow up already!

i have let other guys down and they didnt resort to that.. u might as well take a gun and put it to my head! issh!

never been so angry in a long time.. and i dont even need this right now.. its taking up valuable space in my head.. i should be bothered about other stuff not dumbos!!

I should have known better!

i should have known better that i wasnt ready for this.
i should have known that this just wasnt me
i should have given myself time to know if this was truly what i wanted instead of allowing myself to be swept up in the moment.. now i regret.. i hate regretting.. but now i do... eventhough its a little.. i still do.

i let myself do what i have always been against... i dated a friend.
now i dont want to no more and i dont even know how to go about it..
after a month i started getting cold feet but i thought i could do it, so i ploughed on believing that it would get better with time and the feelings would dissipate and i would go back to liking him.. how was i to know that it was a crush and a crush it shall remain.. now that the crush is gone, what do i do?

if it was someone i was just acquaintances with, i could just tell him what i felt and it would be over, nothing do me.. but a friend? i keep considering his feelings and i dont know how to say anything and not sound selfish, unfeeling, wicked,hardhearted and all the cold words!

wahala part 2!

Am i shallow or what?

OK this is not any lyrically rhyming poem but its an ode quite alright, an appreciation of the work of God and a little of man(grooming).
so many fine people in this life.. was never overwhelmed by fineness or beauty(whichever u choose) until i got to this town(JD,JAND,LONDON ETC). SO many fine brothers and am not even talking about the blacks, the mulattos are by far leading the race, closely followed by other Africans like the Sudanese(their coloring think), the brown people(people of Asia, India, Pakistan, the mixed ones,) even lil kids are so fine i feel like stealing one of each sex! God!!

am so obsessing right now!
life is good! being in the midst of such finery is good for the soul, no? lol

does that make me shallow? like seriously, everyone wants a fine boy on their arms or to call their own but constantly seeking?? does that make a person shallow? my friend says its OK to want a fine boy but if after sometime of being together and u cant see past his outer beauty then, u r indeed shallow! hmm.. at the rate am going i think that's going to be my fate! cos i don't see me capitulating to anything less than what i think is beautiful.. but where i also begin to think am not that shallow is that i have never dated an over the top fine guy.. people actually say that my ex is fine, he's handsome blah blah but i don't see it, i see all that is wrong with him instead.... is it that am too critical or is it that my standards are too high?? hmm...

Also, is it true that th older u get, u tend to lose all them tendencies to be lusting after fine boys and actually look for more meaningful things in guys??.. anyone?? if its true then i think i shud be rest assured that mine is not a problem but something that's going to go away sometime soon...

Seriously, apart from trying to be philosophical about this whole issue, who no like betta thing??

hey, and whats the deal with all the mariage talk nowadays?? i think if one of my mates should mention marriage in the same breath as a conversation, am going to scream!!!!

howdy do!

its sunday!! yippeee.. am so excited the weekend is finally over! never been this happy before.. why this time? well when ure over the top bored, u begin to wish for time to just actually fly and for u to sleep less but wake up to a new day everytime you sleep for just 2 hrs!!

by tuesday i would finally be out of this place i so cant wait.. my own holidays would start.
would be going to the u.k but with all the rains, i don't know if am gonna have so much fun but its better than staying here where all my friends have gone to Nigeria or some other place for the summer holidays! sucks being alone.

just signed in to blogger and what do i see? blog reading list! u put up the blogs u are following.. really! blog reading list and the blog list on our blogs.. aren't they one and the same?? hmm this blogger sef, new new innovation everyday! i was about to start talking anyhow when i saw that my blog had a follower.. iyye!! hmm now am about to go pay back the favour and follow other people's blogs too!! lol

today is sunday,i think i have said that before, ok i have but am saying it for different reasons now.
today is sunday and though am not a Christian, its a day i do my own reflections, constant worshiping, listening to inspirational music and generally meditating and thanking God for another week.

so this sunday, i thank you God for bringing me to the end of my one week vigil.
by this time tomorrow, i would be putting my issh together and getting ready to go.. cant wait to see all my friends and my dad and sister... HAPPY SUNDAY PEOPLE!

IN THE SPIRIT OF RAMADAN

In this month, all vanities are shed and the cloak of salvation is donned

In this month, we repent of our sins and pray for eternal salvation

In this month, we try to steer clear of anything that soils the angelic halo hovering over our heads.(sin)

In this month it is believed that the doors of heaven are open

and that of hell is closed and hence blessings rain down on all and sundry.

This month is the equivalent of the christian lent which ends with easter,

the end of this month is when grains are measured and giving out to the needy in Allah's name and the celebration that follows is called EID EL-FITR.

In this month, we reinforce our faith and belief in Allah and his teachings.

In this month, we be our brother's keepers, feed the hungry, cloth the naked and give the needy.

in this month, we pray, fast and be holy in hopes that we are blessed by Allah and forgiven of all our trespasses.

In the spirit of ramadan, I say RAMADAN KAREEM.

I did find!

There is a kandi song that says, "if u look deep enough, you wud find..." i did indeed find my listeners here in blogsville.



After putting up that last post and comments started coming in, i knew everything was goin to be alright.

I am better now, though i still havent found a way of making my friends listen,:( but a person doesnt have to be your friend to listen and give you good advice or a shoulder to cry on, i found that shoulder right here and am grateful.



To all those who left a comment, a heartfelt thank you, and to all those who read but dont leave comments, i urge u to do so, u dont know, what u have to say might be what i need to gt out of the doldrums. *wink

ok back to reality.... bba3 Starts today and i have no way of seeing it.. suxx!! been going to the website everyfive mins but nothing.. abi do i have the wrong website?? anywhoo.. am thank ful today, this is not thanksgiving and neither is it close to being thanksgiving, but i dont think it has to be before we are thankful abi?

so i AM THANKFUL!!